Shit's been changing a lot around here. Getting a bit more outdoorsy, over the last year or so. Yep, I started growing things, out in the previously barren back yard last summer, and it went pretty well. What began with one easy care garden bed last September became many, and now I've got plants thriving all over the bloody place.
(It's summer right now in the Southern Hemisphere, of course)
That's pretty much why I chose to not do NaNo this year, because the garden is taking so much of my time, but it's really affecting my writing and fandoming (totally a word) across the board. By the time I do get a chance to sit down at the computer, I'm too fucking exhausted to even think, let alone create. Half the time I just choose to not bother turning on the computer at all. And that's not a major revelation these days, because smartphones and devices and shit, and I do occasionally write on my phone, but it's a bit of a palaver, really only done when I have a midnight plotbunny or something. But I like the old physical keyboard, so.
(a hybrid tablet would be a handy dandy piece of equipment, I'm sure)
Anyway! So I've just posted the last fic I'll sign up to write in a while. It was the SPN Holidays Exhange that I signed up for months ago, and it was, to be honest, one of the hardest things I've ever written, mostly because as the weather got warmer and there was more stuff to be done in the garden, I just didn't have the time or brain-things to devote to it. That was pretty much a sign to not sign up for anything else until the summer is most definitely over!
So, the plan is, the next thing I sign up for will be Camp NaNo in July. That's midwinter here, nothing much will be going on in the garden (except for planting some garlic), and I'll have a good month of frost beforehand to plan the thing!
(then it'll be August, where I'll start gearing up for next summer again, holy crap)
So, yeah. Something had to give, and it's turned out to be the writing. Which I'm kind of okay with, at least with the whole signing up/obligation stuff. That way lies stress and the fear of letting people down if I can't complete things.
I've also retired from modding the FMF comm on LJ, after two years. I'm barely in the Teen Wolf fandom these days anyway, I've still got friends and connections there, and I'm still watching the show and reading the odd fic, but I'm not writing in that fandom at all anymore, so it's a good time to move on.
So, there's some definite shifting going on around here. I'm not leaving fandom or anythign like that, it would be impossible, for one! It's more like going with the flow, really. I'll be around as long as there's shows and books and shit to love :D Right now that's hanging on every fucking episode of Supernatural Season 11...
So I'm doing another Xmas exchange thingy
You know how when you sign up for a thing, exchange or whatnot, and there's that horror-period of uncertainty and fear and almost regret when you're awaiting your assignment (because who hasn't gotten an assignment that technically fits your offer but isn't quite your comfort zone and the entire process is a stress thing like OMG THIS IS SO HARD)?
In the past I've written comedic Christmas Dinner genfic (what the hell do I know about Northern Hemisphere Christmas? Nothing. And I'm NOT funny, nope), and fluffy kidfic (soo far out of my ballpark), and 'trimming the tree' (again with the unfamiliar traditions), so Xmas exchanges always instill a kind of cold sweat terror (and yet I continue to sign up).
I got my assignment for spn_j2_xmas yesterday, and I frickin danced around the kitchen with joy. It just FITS. I was like, here are all the things I like, and these are all things I can do!
Prompts even fit things I have been wanting to write but just needed an excuse, and my recipient's likes are all my happy places, and I'm just so pleased!
Epic kudos to the matching mods, they certainly know their stuff.
So I sat down last night and picked one of many bunnies that hit me almost immediately, and roughly planned a thing out, and I'm totally psyched :D I'm not saying there won't be stress (there always is when crafting a thing especially for a person), but I'm feeling very hopeful, because I know I'm capable, I just have to make it work :D
Totally not to diminish the value of challenging oneself to leave ones safe wee box, but sometimes, it's just nice when things come easy, you know?
It's considered the height of rudeness to demand updates of a fic author like this, and that's just basic logic. We don't get paid, this isn't a job. I do this shit for love, and in most cases, I write for myself.
I'll never understand the entitled attitude of some readers. This kind of thing has me more inclined to give the whole thing the big middle finger than to actually bother writing ANYTHING that might placate this selfish twit. Jeez.
I've just realised I should have posted about teenwolfremix here a little earlier, but I've been away with the goddamn fairies. Half of that is school holidays and the fact that I never get on the computer until late when the kids are home and my brain is utterly fried by then :D
But Remix! Participation looks like it'll be a little lower than last year, which is likely related to my own personal fail at promo, but it'll make for a nice cosy wee fest :)
So if you're up for a little transformative working, you ever wondered what someone else might do with your version of the Teen Wolf universe, or you know someone who might be into it, you can check out the full deets on AO3.
Signups close Wednesday 14th January.
You know what it's like on Amazon and Goodreads. The rating system that makes me thankful that I don't write OF. It has a point there, despite the potential for abuse (I've heard of authors using socks to rate their own stuff up, of enlisting friends to do it, and of people who don't like the author one-starring out of malice). You check out the ratings and reviews before you shell out hard earned cash. All of the logic.
Thank god this built in rating system will never be a thing on AO3, those who decide these things having rejected that particular new feature proposal in part due to the potential for abuse.
No one has to pay to read fic, therefore there's no danger in flouncing after the first paragraph if a fic is not to your taste.
I occasionally look at bookmarks of my own stuff on AO3. I like to read the comments, I get all fluttery and excited when someone ticks the rec box, and I look for tags they've applied that I might like to add to the fic.
And I wander through other peoples bookmarks, looking for their recs and comments and often add things to my TBR from there.
From time to time I see readers using a rating system in their bookmarks. I'm not particularly precious about my work, I think I've been doing it long enough that I know my limitations and I know that most of what I post (especially lately) is seriously lacking in one way or another. So when I see a low rating on one of my own personal faves, and one of my highest kudos'd works, I can shrug it off without too much of a hit to my ego.
I realise that most of the time these rating systems have little to do with the quality of the work and more to do with the readers own tastes, and for many are likely only meant for the readers own reference. I keep a rating system of my own, but I keep it in Calibre, safely private on my own personal computer. There's no way in hell I'd let the authors of the works I read see those ratings, because they are for my own future re-reading reference, and have everything to do with my own personal tastes and almost nothing to do with quality.
I never see these ratings by a reader with any works of their own on AO3. It's only readers who make these ratings public. I won't say that before they criticise they should try writing themselves because IMO that's not what they're doing. I imagine that the majority of them simply have no concept of how hard it is to create something and share it.
To all those non-writers who use a rating system: Fic authors (and artists, and podficcers, and all the creators in all the media) put hours upon hours of their own time, and blood, and sweat, and tears, into creating fanworks and then share them for free, for love. It's a very vulnerable position, and particularly for those new to sharing, one knock is all it takes to make them not want to share again. Imagine if this happened to your favourite author way back when they began. If they simply gave up before they'd really started, before they had a chance to hone thier writing. Imagine how little fic we'd have to read now!
AO3 is not Amazon, and it's not Goodreads. Public ratings don't belong here.
If we got paid for this shit it might make public rating systems easier to take, but we don't. All we get in return is a few kudos or comments. Personally, I'm happy with that. I don't want to get paid for writing fic, because this way I get to write whatever the hell I want to write, I don't have to please anyone but myself, and I write to my tastes.
And for those readers who choose to rate to their tastes, that's fine, too, but you should keep it to yourselves. Don't put it where the author is highly likely to see it, in places like public AO3 bookmarks.
The ridiculous thing is that it's very easy to make ratings and comments in an AO3 bookmark private. All you need to do is tick the private bookmark box! Unless you're intentionally trying to make the writers feel bad, but that's kind of an asshole thing to do.
I thought this was year 5, but it's actually my sixth NaNo. Not counting the one Camp NaNo I did. That seems like a lot. I did my first NaNo around the same time or a little before I really started writing fic and being involved in fandom, so it is a good way of keeping track of that.
But 5 years. Holy crap.
So it's day #1 of NaNo '14 and it's awesome! So far. Give me a week and I'll be tearing my hair out and crying. In terms of where I thought I'd be in my story by todays target I'm way ahead. So I'm slightly concerned that I might not have enough story to fill the 50k. Hopefully things flesh themselves out as I move along, if not I have some backup fic I can write to fill the gap.
Oh! And my story. I've tended to write OF for NaNo, but this year I'm writing a (perhaps) novel length SPN fic. Wincest is best, as is the celebration of unhealthy brotherly co-dependence *grin*
I've already killed Dean. Just this morning. Went well XD
Also, I'm doing this without knowing anything about Season 10, so, spoilerphobe warning. Yep.
I'm just going to chuck this here so I can look at it and freak out when I see red boxes.
I'm supposed to be editing my Hols fic right now, in order to get it done and posted before NaNo, but I've actually been working on getting shit sorted for Remix. Signups won't open until December, but December is like, the day after NaNo, and I really don't want to be trying to do it while I'm trying to cram 1667 words into each day as well.
So, yeah. I'm doing that. Plan is to have everything ready to hit the 'open' button before the 1st November. I started months ago, to be honest, but decided we needed new graphics, so I was planning on making pretty banners and shit. Pity the promo pic for season 4 was so blah. I must have worked on making it pretty so many times, and then just didn't do anything because I ended up hating it all. At this point the new graphics I've made are perhaps too simple, and not a huge change from last years, but oh well. We can always change them next year ;)
Next on my list, rewrite all the rules and stuff, because we're making it so fanworks other than just art and fic are eligible to be remixed :D